Lying awake in bed,Paralysed deep in my thought,Seeking long lost answers,To lessons life should have already taught,Am I even good enough for this?To just simply exist amongst it all,Who even am I?But a deluded and confused fool,I sit there pointlessly numb,With my mind pacing and racing,Pondering my crazy thoughts,With dreams...
Slice
A new razor awaits,Aftershave at the ready,A deep breath in,To make my hand steady,A little tear,And the slightest of grins,Time to face the demons,That takes residence within,One slice for punishment,Another for the pain,One slice to remember who I am,Another to forget my name,One slice cos this is what I deserve,Another...
Little Callum’s Dream
Once upon a time little Callum had a dream,To be happy and full of self-esteem,To not have fear and to be happy in life,To settle down, have kids and a wife,To live in a world that was safe and secure,To be happy and content and nothing much moreBut one day...
The Child In Me
In the darkest of corners,In the depths of my mind,There is a young boy called Callum,Not yet distinguished or defined,He is free,From the punishment of age,He is innocent and pureWith his happiness yet to be caged,I try talking to him,But he doesn’t answer back,I apologise to him every single day,For...
Vanilla Tears
Picking up the pieces of my broken life,With guilt and shame cut deep like a knife,With my depression the worst it ever has been,And heartache straight out of a movie scene,My loneliness started feeling a bit too lonely,Everyone wants a cuddle but no one wanted one from me,I heard of...
Day
With a cigarette hanging out my mouth,I’m a damaged man riddled with mental health,I pour myself a drink at 10am,To drown myself out and them,I huddle on the floor,Begging for no more,Never hungry, barely eating,Losing so much weight, at least fatness I’m beating,Put my iPod on random,Manic laughing listening to...
Please Don’t Notice Me
Please don’t notice me,I’m in a bad place today,Please just leave me be,And let me fade away,I’m very anxious and nervous,And I’m holding back tears,Lost in a tearful fearful emptiness,And it’s been building up for years,I have stuff to sort today,It’s the reason I was forced to come outside,I just...
The Nuthouse Rap
A thug in a white coat giving me medication,Locked up for a month for angry meditation,All I hear is the crazies screaming,With me mad as a hatter thinking I’m dreaming,Looking at the bruises that the coppers gave me,Praying to my atheist god too come and save me,Getting my backie stolen...
The Carnival For The Lost – The Merry Go Round
I’m at the carnival for the lost,The damaged and the broken,On the merry go round all by myself,And on the fumes of misery I’m choking,The tune is all distorted,Once a delight to hear,Now all demonic,Spreading hate and fear,The horse of death,For which I am perched upon,Go’s up and down and...
Nightmare Makers
When I go to sleep,I know that demons start to creep,Haunting my every dream,Watching over me as I restPutting my insecurities to the test,Always the same old theme,Dark demented beings with cold black hearts,Staring straight at me from the start,Sat at the end of my bed,Invisible in day, only clear...